BE BRAVE,BE BOLD,BE FREE!!...sooo free...

Ok well today was a nice day though rougher than I thought lol. HLI was nice lol it's so funny how Colin calls pretty much everythin in our times being disgraceful lol and that he doesn't understand the way we dress,what we do.. and that we are weird lol then we had investigation n it was so funny lol cuz 4 the 1st time it was not THAT boring. He started talkin about the poetry in: 'Verde que te quiero verde' :S see?? even he was bored lol well the . is that we had a heated discussion bout what was it that he wanted for our final assignment lol but he answered EVERYTHING but the question!! lol so that's pretty much how we spent the 2nd hour trying to get him to answer the question!! which of course...did not happen... Then we had HLII it was nice but really :S what's wrong with everyone else :S there are just 7 (course including me :P) from around...30...n only those 7 speak,the other ones they are just there!! they dont say anything they dont do ANYTHING!! :S lol the teacher actually called us the: craddle of life in his class lol

After that...well it was a really normal day...but EVERYONE TELLS US TO WRITE ABOUT ANYTHING,THE WAY WE CAN,THE WAY WE WANT,DOESNT MATTER WHAT IS IT ABOUT :s really frustrating cuz that paper is going to give us our grade so :P I dont know what the hell I'm going to do :S I need LOTS of inspiration to come!!! n hopefully I'll do something not THAT bad :P guess we'll see what happens cuz I have to hand them by NEXT WEEK :s so...kinda in a rush for that inspiration to come :P

I JUST HOPE I DONT CRASH AT THE END OF THIS HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE LET GO IN THIS SEMESTER :p prayin for some landing!!
PS Im really tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeed

Today's my b-day n I get one every year...

WEll nothin too special bout this day really,this is the 1st time in my life I didnt feel it so ..special? lol but hey,just another day,with lots of hmw to do.What is it with hmw that no matter what u do it doesnt seem to end?? EVER?!
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n the morning I wake up
And in the night I sleep
Since the day I was born
Repeat, repeat, repeat

Brought to this life
Born to this life
Where was I before?
Non-existent? Not at all?
Will I ever know?

Today is my birthday
And I get one every year
And someday
Hard to believe
But I'll be buried six feet underground

Subconsciously motivated
Natural instinct
Alter nature for the pleasure
Orthocycline

I flirt with conceptions
Slow the cycle
Will the baby grow?
Social tradition interference
Control, control, control

Today is my birthday
And I get one every year
And someday
Hard to believe
But I'll be buried six feet underground
I'll be dead and gone, no longer around

Spinning, spinning
Before I can recall
All the unknown chemicals
Control the cycle

The successive generations
From dust to dust
Burying my grandma
Give birth to my own daughter
Today is my birthday
And I get one every year
And someday
Hard to believe
But I'll be buried six feet underground

Today is my birthday
And I get one every year
And someday
Hard to believe
But I'll be buried six feet underground
I'll be dead and gone, no longer around
I'll be buried six feet underground

I'm a punky princess!!

I saw you at the mall
Trying on the clothes
In that little blue stall
I was watching your feet
Then a piece of cheese hit the floor
Ohhh yeah Floor

I'm just a punk princess
Trying to make it through this life
Trying to make everything alright
But all I can picture is the cheese
Ooh yeah cheese
Why must you make me hurt so much?
Why must you eat so much cheese at lunch?
Why don't you just die, and leave me here like I was
DIE! DIE!! DIE!!! DIE!!!!!! Die like the Japs at Hiroshima when the atom
bomb hit their face and then they died

Actually don't die because that's mean,
and because MTV will break their contract with me
So don't die
Pleash?
Pleash is a word, invented in Spain
Pleash was invented to symbolize the pain
The pain that you've put me through
The pain that I've gained
But if you die, it will all go away
All go away
All go away
But actually don't die pleash, because I kinda like you a little still
But not a lot, just a speck
Like the cheese that's left after I've raided through the fridge
Why must you remind me of cheese?
I love cheese but not you
I only love you a little
Only a speck
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Ok Im dealing with some mental blocking cuz I cant seem to write anythin on my essay report which totally blows :P but I bet my report is gonna blow even more :P ok other than that I had my linguistics xam today n it was so cool cuz either I was too smart or way too stupid cuz the xam started at 10 n I left at 10.30 :P lol so which option is it going to be? we'll see when I get my grade!!!

Asides from that n my mental blocking...oh yeah tomorrow I'm gonna go get some blood test done...THE UNHEALTHY GIRL IS BACK!! lol well actually is just to see what the hell is wrong with me!! sooo I'm not going to school tomorrow, although I dont know if I should b happy or not :P cuz I dont understand a SPECK bout the Waste Land!!! I'm afraid I will suffer the dreadful consequences of my cutting classes :P

Oh my gosh I totally fell in love with that song!!! (the one written above) n I want it BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD but I cant get it :(

I'VE BEEN DOWNLOADIN LOTS OF PUNK SONGS N THEY'RE REALLY COOL I'M LUUUUUUUVIN IT!!!

dreaming of Shakira :S

As most of you may all know by now I dreamt about Shakira last night :S lol the funny part is that I do not give a damn about her :S lol well the story goes down like this:
I supposedly knew this guy who lived in an apartment and shared it with Shakira :S so I had agreed to go n rent some movies n watch them with him bla bla bla well I was on my way n just out of the building I saw Shakira n asked her to come with me to the video store so we could rent the movies n all.lol but then I remember me complanin about her being way too cheap cuz she barely wanted to pay and since she is so rich she was soo cheap as to not wanting to rent more movies :P lol then we went out n all n I dont know why we sat in the street n began talkin for a while and then Elian (YES!! ELIAN!!) came by n sat with us n started singin along with her 'la tortura' lol n I was thinkin god the dude is probably going to kill me since it has taken us soo long!! lol then we were off n got to the apartment. But this is when things got pretty weird lol cuz I have NO IDEA why the dude was naked n we started runnin around takin pictures of him :S lol but then she had to leave cuz she had to go on tour so I came back to my place and that was all.

I had completely forgotten about it til a pop-up came about n reminded me of it lol. Other than that...I had eng. lit. today n I told him bout my project for lit n art n totally thought I was overreading :( but he told me that I should go into the plays n get the exact phrases n thus done, having a lil support for my hypothesis, I should go n talk to the lady n ask her what she thought of it,lol he wished me good luck n told me the music I listened to was way too corny :P lol DISCOVERING MY TRUE SELF WAY TOO SOON! lol n well then I FINALLY bought my no doubt compilation n it turns out I have definetely developed a fondness for them lol...ironically..THEY'RE PRETTY MUCH DONE!!

BY THE WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY SPEAKIN OF DONNESS, someone told me (that you had a boyfriend who looked like a girlfriend...lol) THAT GARBAGE IS DEFINETELY SPLITTIN UP!!!!!! THAT JUST CANNOT BE!!!!!!! SHIRLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE GOT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!!!!!! besides garbage totally rules!! is one of the best bands EVER!!!! n one of my 2 most favorite ones!! THAT CANNOT BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! TRAGEDY FOR THE ENTIRE MUSIC CULTURE!!!!...nevertheless I cant believe it....PLZ SHIRLEY PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPLZ GO BACK TO UR SENSES!!!

URGENT PLEA FOR HER TO HAVE MERCY N ...GO BACK TO HER SENSES???

Still cant believe it...which xplains why Im not cryin :P well what else....oh yeah I FINALLY had my most wanted n desired VEGETARIAN BURGER!! I reaaaaaally luv them n I had been wantin one for a while now n theeeeeeeeeeeeen I FINALLY FINISHED READIN PRIDE N PREJUDICE YAY ME!! lol now off to read sonnets n work on my projects n read A LOT n study for my linguistics xam....lol...but YAY I FINISHED PRIDE N PREJUDICE!!! lol

WOW THIS IS THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE PHRASE!!!!!!!!!!!! N IT TOTALLY APPLIES!!
"I think for a long time I was under the illusion that life was like a storybook. I think particularly when you're a female, you're imbued with all these ideas you know from 'Cinderella' to 'Sleeping Beauty,' and you've got this idea that somebody's gonna come along and fix your life. And I sort of came to the realization that actually nobody's gonna fix your life for you, you have to do it yourself. And it's about just making an effort to make your life good. If it sucks, do something about it."


N I totally met her!!! she really keeps on sayin the rite thing at the rite moment for me :)

Re-birth

Ok now I have got to admit that I might be gettin a bit concerned about my health!! I literally died for 2 hours today :S ait but better start from the beginning. At russian it was pretty cool cuz since we are now lookin at health-doctorish issues Natasha gives us hypothetical situations and we have to talk on them ...I was supposed to be a dentist today lol which was pretty cool since my vocabulary knowledge on those issues is QUITE LOW lol so I didnt know how to say anythin lol the fact is that I ended up sayin that he had to get an operation, operation as in the big ones that reaaally cut u lol n it had NOTHIN to do with teeth lol which is why I ALMOST lost my credibility as a dentist but thank goodness I did not lol n then I laughed so hard at the comment of russian always encouragin ill ppl to move n not think about the operations they just had n everythin lol but then she was like...of course...not with the ones who just had a heart operation LOL I TOTALLY PICTURED THE DOCTOR SAYIN: GET UP! WALK! GO GET IT YOURSELF!! n the poor other man completely dyin cuz he just had a serious heart-operation lol!!!

Then in the investigation class,since I entered the room,I thought it was way too bright,n really couldnt see!! at 1st I thought it was normal n that I would get acquainted n everythin but I didnt n I started feelin very bad, got a serious headache n really I have no idea whatsoever of how the hell did I get through it!! n I couldnt leave cuz I had another class just after that one n I went to that one n I couldnt stand my headache!!! n after 2 hrs of being 'dead' I got my sight back n the headache diminished...yet still there all afternoon...what the hell is wrong with me?! :S

So much for the bad news...n well...I kinda have topic for my lit n art's essay n I have a slight idea of what I want to do for HLII but I have to get started...so as usual lots of things to do but really cool!! :D

INTENDED LETTER TO AVRIL..if we get her e-mail..

Dear Avril

How are you? I hope you're ok. I'm worried about you. I liked your punk look but now it's gone. What happened to you! What did they do with you! What did you do to yourself!!. Please reply if you can

Love, Carlish

P.S: Your concert in Mexico City was kinda lame

So far

Well I know it's been quiiite a long time since I last wrote,but truly I have been really busy,reading n doin tons of homework ( who would have believed me...me doing homework!! but it's the truth) well I've read a loooooot n oh yeah I did go to that Avril's concert n it was funny cuz previously that day I went with a friend to a comic store cuz he wanted to buy something, oh yeah the class was amazing I mean,it was PING PONG between him n me since no one else spoke so...if we didnt speak ...it would have been even MORE boring!! so I went with him n we were speakin in english n we saw a shirt that ...DEMANDED my attention...lol so, since my bday is near ( I HAVE NO FREAKIN IDEA OF WHAT IM GOING TO DO FOR MY B DAY :s ) anyways he decided to buy it for me as my b day gift,n so he did..lol but then he started teasing me on me dreamin with the shirt n touchin it n thinkin it was the one in the shirt LOL the fact is that I played along ASSUMIN THE CHICK DIDNT UNDERSTAND US BUT WHAT'S WITH MY SURPRISE SHE DID!!!! lol I cannot go back to that place with my head up high!! lol either wey that afternoon was the concert n it was so cool to see so many ppl dressed in such a cool way!! there were lines n lines of ppl waitin lol....I was among those ppl...OH YEAH THAT DAY WAS THE MISS CONGENIALITY DAY!! CUZ I BUMPED INTO EVERYONE!! AT LEAST I SAID HELLO TO 60 PERSONS!! i felt sooo popular lol..more than I had ever felt in my entire life!!

Well since it was general admission there was lots of waiting around lol n lots of been squeezed n all but the side where we were on was not THAT Bad but it really amazed me to see how the security guys were actually handing in glasses with water!! HOW DEHYDRATED WE MUST HAVE LOOKED FOR THEM TO DO THAT N FOR FREEE!! either way the place was FULL!! I had never seen it that way either... n it was cool TIL SHE CAME UP!! really COULD SHE HAVE LOOKED ANY MORE UGLY??? dont think so!!!! n I felt ripped off cuz IT WAS SO BRIEF N I PAID A LOT!! :P damn her!!! the cool part was when she sang he wasnt n sk8er boi n when she played the drums in song 2 n well I lived to tell it!! ALTHOUGH I DID FEEL RIPPED OFF!! either way it was nice n ever since I have been buried with books n now I have to drinks lots of meds n devote myself to keep reading lol I NEED DIVINE HELP FOR MY PAPER FOR LIT N ART... how can I xplain why something is poetic for me?? IT JUST IS!!!!! (there's my crisis lol) n on monday I have my linguistics xam though Im not THAT panicked now n ...oh yeah my b day's comin n I dont know what the heck I'm going to do for it since I'm too busy with school to think about it...anyways...we'll see what happens :) PEACE OUT!!

THIS IS IN HONOR TO THE GOOD TIMES SHE HAD!!!

PLZ make it stop!

WEll Im back! lol the truth of the fact is that I have been very busy but its ok, I really luv it so it aint a drag well,the stalkin is back REALLY GIVE IT A BREAK DUDE STOP IT WHY IS IT SO FUCKIN HARD TO UNDERSTAND THAT? STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!!! ....it really pisses me off!!

Going to the good things,I FINALLY got my guitar back n it sounds better than ever :D yay for shakti :D n Im officially in my linguistics class!! n its better than the previous one so im happy, lol besides we are going to get some 'beauty tips' in russian lol so ....god knows what im going to learn...MY GOD PPL IN RUSSIA LIVE UP TO 150 YEARS :s well what else...I finally did my 1st poem interpretation :S pretty intimidating cuz poetry is really the hardest!! at least to understand...anyways summary: Shakti is back, Im officially in linguistics n tomorrow Im going to Avril's concert so...we'll see how it goes n ....I don't know...sometimes it really feels weird growing up cuz u do change n ...I dont know....

GOSH SOMEONE PLZ HELP ME GET THIS FCKIN STALKER OUT OF MY LIFE I MEAN REALLY...WHAT IS IT I HAVE TO DO ???

...anyways tomorrow = have fun :)

new love?

Well it's been somewhat of a weird/good day I mean I had to get up early to go to russian only to find out that Natasha had been sick and didnt go so we went for a russian movie lol...I really appreciate american films although they can be pretty stupid n are mere visual effects lol but hey at least there is a plot....limited..but there is!! in these ones there is none they are just images so we didnt understand A THING lol so I ended up falling asleep..how suprising is that!! lol afterwards I went to my lit/music class which was good then I went to see the current exposition at the MUCA and it's nice but the previous one had been better, I got my library credential lol...still havent gotten the one of the main library....lol someday I will I promise!! (how freaky is that I mean I am studyin literature and I dont have a credential for the main library....figure how I read?? CUZ I DO! lol) n well then I FINALLY solved the linguistic's issue!! n I'm officially in..although in the class on monday's which is better cuz my schedule is now more balanced!! n YAY I WONT HAVE TO PRESENT IT AS AN EXTRAORDINARY EXAM!!

Afterwards...gosh my faculty is FILLED with folklore EVERYWHERE!! there was a battucada right outside n it was pretty cool so I stood there starin for the time I was supposed to having been in the class I didnt have ...lol so I did n I ran into a friend of mine so we stood there talkin n in the afternoon I FINALLY took my guitar to the hospital...and the doctor happened to be...reaaaaaaaaaaaaal nice...I mean he is nice...he plays the guitar n EVERY INSTRUMENT :P lol ...and he is hot....n we baptzied my guitar!!! lol..anyways Im going to see him tomorrow cuz I have to pick up my guitar ...WHO KNOWS WHAT COULD HAPPEN...lol I certainly wouldnt mind at all!!

fRRRRResh

Well I feel very productive..:D lol n everyone else has said it as well IM NOT A HOLLOW/GRAY GIRL ANYMORE lol I have been having my sparkles lately lol hope it lasts lol but my russian well...I understand it better now :D n everythin really I do feel productive :) I'm readin a book by Jane Austen "pride and prejudice" (ok I just started it lol) but it seems pretty nice...really..if someone had told me like 2 years ago that I would be reading...and ENJOYING IT...I sooo wouldnt have believed it!! What else...I have to take my guitar to the doctor..I mean I took it today but the doc wasnt there so I will take it on thursday...WHAT IS THE DEAL WITH RICH PPL?? I really dont get it! I am of the opinion that if you have a lot of something you should share it instead of braggin about it ...they're such idiots they cant even give you directions if you're lost!! WHAT'S WITH THAT HUH? ...but sooomeday....

In another week is going to be the Avril-mission stuff so I have to see what happens with that but believe it or not I am excited about it lol ...poor me..it's been such a long time since I last went to a concert!! lol Oh yeah by the way I DO BELONG TO A COMMUNITY YAY ME :D to the english-reading community AINT THAT INTERESTING?? I BELONG TO A COMMUNITY :d lol n well other than that....I finally saw the island and I have to admit I didnt think it was going to be that bad but not that good either and I Really liked it!! which made me think about how acting must be the greatest job ever!! I mean you may have your significant other and that is not an obstacle to kiss hot ppl n sometimes even make out with them...AND THEY STILL GET PAID FOR THAT!! WOW I WISH I COULD ACT!! ...but for better or for worse ...that is certainly not one of my gifts....lol...well the point of this was: if you have the chance to watch it DO SO!! :) ...trust me....the gathering is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo n by far worse!!! this one has a good concept n it kinda reminded me of gattaca at some points....:) so watch it if you can :)

maxim?

Well I finally went to the movies and watched 'the gathering'...yup....still not the island :P anyhow I felt ripped off!!! lol anyways I got another movie!! yay ...more to my collection :D n question of the day: what do you think happened to the horse Madonna was riding when she fell down??
a)she still has it
b)she gave it away
c)SHE TOOK IT TO BE KILLED!! lol

Most persons think it was option C lol what do you think? dont you think its kinda drastic...EVEN FOR MADONNA?? lol

.....WANNA GO WATCH THE ISLAND WITH ME?? :D lol.....what else....oh yeah I met a girl today who (I found out afterwards) had been on Maxim..I dont know if it was on the cover but at least in the magazine...lol but it was very funny cuz I 'talked' to her n I had NO IDEA of who she was ...(I still dont have any idea...)lol n then a girl was like...MY GOD SHE THINKS SHE S GOD CUZ SHE WAS ON MAXIM BLA BLA BLA lol then she ate her alive with all those comments lol...the worst part is that I didnt think she was so bad,I thought she was kinda nice lol but it just was funny to b there lol :)
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I saw my 'starbucks' friend n it was nice seein her again :) we talked n WE SAW A LADY WHO WAS TRYIN TO STEAL SOMETHIN FROM THE STORE N THE ENTIRE MALL WERE ALL STARIN AT THE WOMAN CUZ SHE WAS RELUCTANT TO BE CHECKED, which totally proves she was tryin to steal somethin :P but there were lots of policemen n everythin I thought somethin much worse had happened :P but what's up with the burglar-lady?!...HOW AWFUL WOULD IT B TO BE REMINDED AS THE BURGLAR-LADY!! N IN A MALL!! :s
My trauma with romeo n juliet is back!!! THAT IS LOVE!! NOT BULLSHIT!!

sucked in by mind!!

WEll there is not much to tell really..I have reeeeeeeally been absorbed by school...but the weird part is that I like it, I mean it is really interesting what I'm doin n I am learning a lot so it's kinda cool :) other than that....gosh I've come to the conclusion that there is no possibility for human kind to b able to make an 'investigation class' FUN!!! gosh :S the worst part is that IT IS VERY HELPFUL!! n well we were attacked by MOTHS!! during the class!! lol

'Fair Quiet,have I found thee here,
and Innocence, thy sister dear=
mistaken long, I sought you then
in busy companies of men.
Your sacred plants, if here below,
only among the plants will grow;
society is all but rude,
to this delicious solitude.'

PS by the way...an armed lady is back in my life!! lol