ABC...STOP!! reloaded

hehe see what having or rather making some leisure time leads to?? just updating old posts

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Available?: debatable position
Age?: just turned 21 :S
Annoyance?: hypocrisy!! (maintain that) and add convenience
B
Best Friends?: agree with the whole the-ones-who-are-there thing
Bar?: the one that we attended to yesterday, live rock!!
Birthday?: September 28th
C
Crush?: dammit :S maybe what I'm suffering is only the result of a not corresponded infatuation
Car?: "IF YOU DON'T LIKE THE WAY I DRIVE...DRIVE PAST ME!" hehe cool entry!! I maintain that!
Cat?: does Milka count???
D
Pets Name?: Star though I want her to accept her second name and she is refusing!!
Dad’s Name?: God almighty
Dog?: STAAAAAAAAR or ball however u canna call her :)
E
Easiest person to talk to?: depends on the issue
Emo?: NOW I FINALLY UNDERSTAND THIS ONE!! see? wisdom is reflected on the years of ripeness YEAH RIGHT HEHE but I think they look cool tho their whole philosophy,come on...nice look tho?
E-mail?: ask ME
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Favorite color?: green and then blue
Food?: vegetarian
Foreign Slang?: dont know much of russian slang but I would certainly like it if I could increase it DESPERATE CALL FOR SOME RUSSIAN TO COME ALONG AND TEACH ME!!
G
Gummy Bears or Worms?: GUMMY BEARS!! and I hadn't noticed I still have a poor gummy bear crucified on my mirror hehe looks weird but at least it still has its head on
God?: is actually proven himself to me and right now is telling me something and I just can't act on it HATE WEAKNESS!!
Good Time?: being able to rawk hehe :) and sharing it with someone cool
H
Hair Color?: dark blonde
Height?: 1.59 but good things DO come in small measures!! (sucks to say that this hasn't changed but hey, whatcha gonna do bout it)
Happy?: trying to get there :)
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Ice Cream?: my favorite dessert!!
Instrument?: guitar and piano
Idol?: Shirley Manson,Angelina Jolie and Amy Lee HOLY TRINITY!!! hehe this remains the same and I'm going to be seeing my goddess Amy pretty soon for that matter YAY
J
Jewelry?: does my lip piercing count as such?? oh and also my ear rings?
Job?: maybe it's not a job but I'm a social worker for the moment hehehe
Joke?: politics
K
Kids?: aren't alright?? lol ...or are we speaking of my future daughter??
Karate?: now this one has changed I'm back at karate and loving it!!
Kite?: +storm= death?
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Longest Car Ride: can't remember though there are some short ones that seem eternal!!
Longest Relationship: not such a good subject to speak of lol
Last Person you spoke to on the phone: Carlos
M
Milk Flavor: soy milk
Mother’s Name: Rooooose
Movie Last Watched: Star Wars Episode III the Revenge of the Sith DAMN IT IT'S A GOOD MOVIE!!!
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Number of Siblings: sad to say this one has changed....
Northern or Southern: depends though Northern tends to be more multicultural (NOT ALWAYS)
Name: why would someone be reading this if they didn't AT LEAST know my name??
O
ONE Wish?: wanting to be fulfilled...
One Phobia?: snakes CANT STAND THEM nor spiders nor bugs...hell one might say I'm scared of nature lol
Only goal: be able to do what I've been wanting to do for so long
P
Parents are they married or divorced: long story
Part of your appearance you like best: my hands INCLUDING MY vanilla submarine arms!! HAHA AND THIS IS WHY AND ALSO BECAUSE OF MY PREDICTIONS THAT AM CALLED THE MIGHTY TWINKY HAHAHA
Part of your personality you like best: being weird
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Quote: "If things were easy anyone would do them!" tho at times it's hard to remain faithful to that
Question for the next person: [did you see underworld?]HHEHEHE ....this time it would be did you see Star wars III?
Quick or Slow?: slow....protracts pleasure? now what's with this question :S
R
Reason to smile: you have a reason to be
Reality TV Show: I hate reality shows and if I dO watch any...it would be the real world
Right or Left: Both
S
Song Last Heard: there is no you there is only me THERE IS NO FUCKIN YOOOOOOOU THERE IS ONLY ME!! (wow this song describes my temporary trauma :S )
Season: most definetely winter I'm not a snowflake for nothing!!
Sex [gender]: deadly chick? lol
T
Time you woke up: today at 10 am
Time Now: 20.18 pm
Time for bed: there is not a specific time maybe when I can't take it any longer hehe
U
Unknown Facts about me: ...I can't ride a bike properly though I'm very good rollerblading??
U are......?: the sun that's oh so rock n rooolll!!!!
V
Vegetable you hate: haven't found it yet
Vegetable you love: mushrooms? depends on how they are prepared
View on Politics: guess my previous comment sums it up
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Worst Habits: believing that everyone,no matter if it doesnt look it, has a bright side and sticking around in order to find that something that may not necessarily always be there...
What do you wanna be when you grow up: musician
Where are you traveling to next? [hopefully Argentina!!...yup...still saving money if u wanna contribute] now this is a sad entry, this dream had been fulfilled in the worst way but hey....I guess this time I WOULD SOOO LOOOOVE TO GO BACK TO RUSSIA!!! RUSSIA RUSSIA!!!
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X-Rays: superpower!!
X-Games: snowboarding on the winter x games??
X-Files: creepy...and Moulder......
Y
Year you were born: 1986
Year it is now: 2007
You wanna get married?: eventually yup for I really do want it to be meaningful
Z
Zoo Animal: white tiger
Zodiac: Libra!!
Zest: sweet

N I GUESS I HAVEN'T CHANGED ALL THAT MUCH

Post-birthday

One more year...and now a new stage begins!! ...don't know if it's according to kharma or whatever but I can just feel it, well, at least I'm at a legal age now hehe we can go to Vegas baby!! hehe, well, what can I say, I had a split bday celebration but it was really good. The one on friday was a lot more of a close gathering but we drank (or at least I did) a lot of wine :S yup, evidently the next day I was completely hungover!! still that very night we went to the bar celebration part and it was awesome!! the drinks were just fine, the bands were pretty good, and the company even better (got two really cool presents, one of which I'm wearing at this moment and the other one I watched earlier). Tho the coolest part was when C went to the stage and actually performed a song for me, that was awesome!! [...damn...that's what I wanna do for the rest of my life!! I just gotta!!] and well lol, afterwards a complete stranger from some table yelled happy bday to me lol and offered me a beer and so we drank it together all the way hehehe that was pretty cool and pretty unusual for me! And well...I danced around a lot, bobbed my head like crazy and summarized...had a very good time :)

Now on other subjects....dammit I'm sooo confused and I hate it...which reminds me of "some of them want to abuse you, some of them want to be abused" no no no !!! at least this time I'm aware of it....now I should set into action but can't decide on it, or rather I can't do it :S quoting Senator Palpatine "I'm too weak" ....and so I don't know what I'm going to do, however this can't go on like this for much longer, guess I'll have to wait n see what happens and mentalize!! train myself!!! .....guess I belive too much in words and this has obviously misled me to this point...

attachment leads to jealousy.....

IRINA PHONED YAY!!! (....the fact that I was not awake when she did and had to hear from her through a voice message on my mobile is an entirely different matter)...SHE STILL CALLED!! (course I would have loved to have answered her DAMMIT!) hehe I guess that this is my new catchy word, at least for now :) PEACE OUT!!!

...can't remember...did I post something on my little getaway trip the other day??

Perfect day

It's funny how things work out sometimes...like I thought I was actually going crazy and losing my temper, my friends,well...sometimes things can be just in one's head!!
but it still feels great to get to be proven wrong at least when it comes to these issues. Today was a very intense and varied day I would say. I finally went to the doctor and received some treatment AT LAAAAAST!! THERE IS JUSTICE IN THIS WORLD!!
However, I do gotta admit I was feeling kinda depressed and let down with things concerning friendship, maybe I may still be confused but today was so about: the moments that remind you what's worth living for and that there is something that's worth it....it was just so unreal, like, not going to school, driving all the way to technically the countryside....just to eat..to get away from it all at least for a moment...walk .....enjoy the silence (Depeche is so right!)

It's just that I had been lacking the feeling of peace for such a long time that even if it was for a brief moment it felt like heaven to me. And sooooo this battery has been re charged at least for a lil'while....gosh a dreadful (me exaggerating hehe) day draws near!! but maybe Irina will call me and that would be awesome!! still, sharing time with my friends is going to be awesome :D OH N BTW I'M ALREADY A YELLOW BELT IN KARATE YEEEE!! hehehe and also playing Chopin or beginning to do so helps my ego as a pianist.....MUSIC JE L'AIME!!!

TOTALLY SCHIZO!!!!

Ok so you know how there are days when absolutely NOTHING happens to you? well, today was the complete opposite! today pretty much everything happened :S SO WEIRD!!
For starters I bumped into an ex (which wasn't really my ex but should have been)next to J's best friend(a friend of someone with whom I wanted something to happen but didn't)!!!!!! I SO HAD THE DIFFERENT IMAGES SOOOO PARADOXICAL!! and so, I ended up toodling around and having coffee with this "ex". However, afterwards we ended up having a very intense discussion bout things that are, that were and so on.
As if that hadn't been weird enough, during my karate lessons I ended up agreeing on a date with some friend, BUT when I got home this "ex" ended up confessing his love for me :S I FEEL LIKE IN A NOVEL OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT :s however I still have NO idea what I'm going to do about it, I guess only time will tell.

.....has reading Emma Bovary's novel permeated my life OR WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON????

Time will say nothing but I told you so,
Time only knows the price we have to pay;
If I could tell you I would let you know.

If we should weep when clowns put on their show,
If we should stumble when musicians play,
Time will say nothing but I told you so.

There are no fortunes to be told, although,
Because I love you more than I can say,
If I could tell you I would let you know.

The winds must come from somewhere when they blow,
There must be reasons why the leaves decay;
Time will say nothing but I told you so.

Perhaps the roses really want to grow,
The vision seriously intends to stay;
If I could tell you I would let you know.

Suppose all the lions get up and go,
And all the brooks and soldiers run away;
Will Time say nothing but I told you so?
If I could tell you I would let you know.
W.H.Auden