setting the record straight!!

I DO NOT NEED TO GET LAID WHILE LISTENING TO "LUXURIOUS"! yes it may appeal to me and I may find it sexy and sexual but I do not need to get laid while listening to that song or else it wouldn't count :P just setting the record straight ..quite briefly because I have to get back to my essay...COMPLETELY ELEVATED NOT EVEN I BELIEVE THE LEVELS I'VE REACHED!!
n yay me I'm more russian now!! I got a final 9 in russian yay!! I can be half russian now ;)..kinda weird wishing a merry xmas while still being in November...and also a weird thought: me acting as a complete and die-hard fan of evanescence to a ridiculous extent...but hey....that's true....I do like evanescence to a ridiculous extent...as ridiculous as the extent I like Garbage...lol

PS now we see the effect of "porn-rhythms" in me...I'm completely hypnotized!!!

Laaaaaaas niteeeeee

Well right now I'm listening to the strokes..julian is so hot..besides his voice is really sexy lol, well the main point is that I like their music :) anyways I just came back from my linguistics xam and I hope I did fine I mean this entire weekend I did nothing but hang out :P yup...soo many things to do and I waste my time...that does add a little thrill doesnt it? (let me convince myself that it's not that bad!!) well the things is that I should start working on my paper for HLII that I have to hand in on thursday but hey..just came back from an exam it's just fair to rest!! besides I woke up really early today to study for my exam lol cuz I ended up going to the movies yesterday instead of studying! and I watched Harry Potter AGAIN n it was so funny cuz my friend and all the other girls just sighed as soon as Daniel came out lol and they didn't even ask for the tickets which totally blows cuz we did pay for them...it would have been just awesome if we had gotten in without having paid..next time we shall try that and then go get the tickets if needed lol

Well this weekend was very weird,it really amazes me how life can change overnight,I mean on friday I was EXTREMELY STRESSED to a point where I actually started crying n everything and then on saturday I find out that a guy totally digs me and have a potential boyfriend :S FREAKY!! and well I really don't know how take it..guess I'll have to find out but :S weird!!! something else that really amazes me is how someone I thought didn't really care totally does!! and thanks to that my world didnt end on friday,so THANK YOU YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOU HELPED ME!!!

Anyways I should just sit around and wait for inspiration to come...complete ELEVATION UUH!!

it's just temporary insanity

"The flower that smiles today
tomorrow dies;
all that we wish to stay
tempts and then flies;
what is this world's delight?
lightning, that mocks the night,
brief even as bright.-

Virtue, how frail it is!-
Friendship, how rare!-
Love, how it sells poor bliss
for proud despair!
but these though soon they fall,
survive their joy, and all
which ours we call.-

Whilst skies are blue and bright,
whilst flowers are gay,
whilst eyes that change ere night
make glad the day;
whilst yet the calm hours creep,
dream though- and from thy sleep
then wake to weep."

Well I'm really happy cuz I FINALLY FINISHED MY ESSAY FOR LIT N ART!! yup..the one that I was really worried about..and I think it's not that bad, I hope she likes it and finds it convincing enough!! either way 1 down 2 to go!! yup...more essays to write... anyways well I gotta say it's really amazing how words can lift you up or bring you down. Earlier I talked to someone who totally picked up my pieces and put me back together again, I was totally smashed and thanks to her I feel so much better now! besides I did learn something and I don't know how to explain it but the fact that she said what she said to me, the truth, what my problem is, really helped me and gave me a totally different point of view of things...so if you ever read this: THANK YOU!!!!!

Other than that...been totally busy with school, I had my russian xam n I think I didnt do that bad,it's amazing how much you can learn if you actually study your notes ...you might actually know what the hell they're talking about in class!! lol I did learn the movement verbs WHICH IS REALLY HARD!! and well now we are just singing russian xmas songs lol ...n we still got more xams to come but the grammar one is totally done. speakin of the russian breakfast, it was nice THERE WAS SOOOO MUCH FOOD THERE!! n she lives sooooooo far away!!! but it was worth it :) what else...my brain is totally drenched!! on thursday I had quite an oddyssey to get home to get a book I forgot and I came in the middle of the morning...it's amazing how the world changes from 12 to 3 pm!!! ...entirely different lol besides they really got me thinking about my abilities as a walker cuz I was just walking n I heard lots of hunks n I thought I couldnt be THAT bad!! lol but turned out it was a friend and he gave me a lift pretty near home so...totally worked!!

I think the moral of the day is:
"what if in a world of sin
such giddiness of heart and brain
comes seldom save from rage and pain,
so talks as it's most used to do"

Oh yeah I talked to my sis yesterday and it was really nice hearing about her! :) miss you!!

PS what am I to doooo with a brat like thattttt

PS2 it's not such a good idea to fall asleep in the islands just to get warm cuz you might end up totally sunburnt and with a terrible headache!!..kinda sad to get my tan like this isnt it?

doomed to eternity!

Well today was very cool, I mean for starters we're having the 'russian-style' breakfast tomorrow, so that should be good I mean we're all gonna be there although I do gotta admit it's gonna be real hard for me to get up sooooo early and actually be at the station at 6.30 but I will try my best. After that it was fun to just stare at the dogs running and following their 'masters' they're just sooo cute how can anyone just not love them?
Then we had HLI and by the way the person of the day, the week perhaps is Colin!! lol well I do admit that it's gonna be tough the exam I mean recognizing styles and describing them = NOT EASY! but let's move forward to the cool stuff of the day, after that we had investigation and I finally seem to have understood what the final delivery is about! THANK GOD! n the teacher seemed sorta pleased which is good meaning that I do plan to stay in his class for next semester:P The thing is that in that class there's a girl who will be doing Sylvia Plath lol but as most ppl know, Colin is totally surrounded by mystery and he actually has a lot of urban legends around lol but it's really striking I mean HE ACTUALLY MET SYLVIA PLATH,TED HUGHES,T.S. ELIOT,AMADO NERVO, obviously Octavio PAz, he was in the war with Korea, he lived the WWII I mean doesn't it just sound like the guy has been around like..FOREVER? lol so when we found out about the Sylvia Plath issue we started digressing but now the rumour is that he actually slept with her and that is why she killed herself lol cuz he said : oh crazy woman... lol and dumped her so she killed herself lol we couldn't stop makin that up lol but it's really fun and supposedly he actually kept the condom lol!!! and here's the freaky part...since I saw the Sylvia movie I actually picture Colin with Sylvia as Gwyneth Paltrow!!!!! not my fault lol!

Other than that shock of the day lol but SYLVIA PLATH COME ON!! and he has a picture with Ted Hughes somewhere in the faculty...or so I've heard...see? THE MAN IS TOTALLY SURROUNDED BY URBAN LEGENDS!! well lol asides from that HLII was nice cuz the teacher was actually happy and actually told us to enjoy our weekend :O ...hard to believe...but true...and then oh yeah it looks like we're going to be quite a lot of ppl on saturday but that's really nice I mean everyone is inviting more ppl and it was meant to be just a gather up lol I mean it will be but now there will be more ppl included. It's sooo much fun flirting with "chinos" lol and he flirts back which is even more fun..I don't know what it is but he's attractive in a way,in which I do not know. The other day I totally forgot to mention THE Earings!! lol I mean and I thought that the ones with the planes were exotic...then the ones with the hat and the gun...and then...DEAD COWS THE ACTUAL SKULLS WITH GRASS ON THE SIDES!! lol I mean that's totally unforgettable!! and there was something else I had forgotten to write about....oh yeah a red-headed dude talked to me yesterday! but really what's the problem with men? if you are 'flirting' with someone and that someone 'flirts' back HOW COME YOU DONT GO N TALK TO HER?! seriously get a grip!!

I'm also happy to announce that...everything is falling into place for I kinda got organized with all the essays n stuff...n also that I'm going to watch Harry Potter tomorrow lol yay cuz I'm really looking forward to it! I hope it's as good as I expect it to be and other than that...I think I'm outta thoughts for the moment only that THE GILMORE GIRL SPEAKS SPANISH VERY WELL!! :O

"Farewell, farewell the heart that lives alone,
housed in a dream, at distance from the kind;
such happiness, wherever it be known,
is to be pitied, for 'tis surely blind"

And it really IS amazing how all of a sudden I ended up in the angel last nite talking about how cool it would be if it got stolen!!

Love profusion

Well its been quite a while but I have been as busy as hell! we are now finishing the semester and my god Im filled with essays n things to do! I have to finish reading a book(hopefulyy I will finish it tomorrow) I have to do my paper for HLII,I will have my linguistics exam, among other things but I have to admit that the one that is freakin me out is my paper for lit n art cuz I have no idea of what Im going to write about!!! that is scary!! a good paper n totally out of nowhere...quite a challenge but I will have to do my best..and well the other day it was crazy cuz it all started when I arrived at my beloved faculty n was received by a hot guy lol it was so funny cuz he was like: do you smoke? and stupid me answered no but I should have said something like..I would if you want me to...lol something a bit more exciting,see? it's not that good been healthy :P lol then a friend arrived n I asked him to go with me to see the guy again n to get him to give HIM a cup of coffee or I dont know what they were giving away but it was really funny cuz my friend was technically rubbing himself in front of him and he never paid any attention to him lol which was quite pathetic but hey worth the shot!!

After that as usual we were patronized by Colin but hey...it's normal now!! n well we went to Investigation n the guy nearly asked me out of his class but it's not my fault that he doesn't know how to express himself and that he cannot answer my questions:P cuz I was even more confused after I asked so he actually said: well...if I see you here next semester because I see that you are not learning anything in my class WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN!! I mean yeah the things he is asking us to do are stupid nevertheless I have to remain in his class :P the thing is that I was so upset that everyone else in the classroom was explaining to me what I had to do n that kinda solved my doubts ....not entirely but sufficiently enough to do my work :p it sucks!!
Then we had HLII n it turns out that we had to hand in our outlines for our essays ...turns out I had NO IDEA WHATSOEVER so the guy lost it n was like if I dont receive your outlines I wont receive your final papers WHICH WOULD HAVE MEANT THE ENTIRE SEMESTER THROWN AWAY!! I couldnt believe that it was happening so we rushed out of the room cuz he said that he oughta have them before 3 so well...rush inspiration...but thats better than nothing at all!! the thing is he finally gave us a chance to send them by e mail before 12 but it was complete madness! for I really had to technically do a paper in one day!! I mean it was: thesis statement, development and conclusion which leaves me with just fill in the gaps :P but I pushed my brain to a higher level!! lol but THANK GOODNESS I pulled if off! n well I will be quite stressed out within the next couple of weeks :S Ive got also final exam on russian which totally freaks me out!! :S oh yeah this friday we'll go to Natasha's to have breakfast isnt that cool? and well what else...I like my piano lessons they're cool,I loved my guitar lesson I mean WOW I WANNA PLAY LIKE HIM!! besides he is nice and he is cute and very talented....the thing is ....what does HE think about ME?

Oh yeah today I arrived to the conclusion that perhaps my 'extreme' philosophy might not be THAT effective...I do gotta work on it since I was left quite pensive about many things...it's cool though,that I see my mistakes and learn from them so that I don't repeat them...well other than my musical ecstasy and my quite elevated ideas for my papers..REALLY: TOTAL ELEVATION! I feel my brain expanding n I mean it! (guess I never really had to push it the way I have to do it now...I am really thinking :O lol ) n well...cant think of anything to do yeah (carried away by the white stripes) oh yeah things I thought were real were not!! and I will leave you with this cool thought:
'What if the cause of all my problems is me?'

Don't know why but I liked it. N to end this: I REALLY WANNA GO SEE HARRY POTTER!! and not because that will be my former occupation:P writing Harry Potter reloaded :P but because it seems to be really cool!
I do gotta bounce now cuz I have to keep reading (WHO WOULD HAVE SAID IT! ME A BOOK-WORM!)

PS and a loooooove profusion you make me feel you make me...shine? lol (cant get this song out of my head)
i'M EVEN MORE ROMANTIC THAN I THOUGHT I WAS(sticking to the strict meaning of the word)

can anybody see what I see?

Well just when I was feeling already in vacation...I have to fully go back to school which sux cuz hey I do need some vacations...besides the tough part is coming!! lots of papers to write,my project for lit n art it's totally floating in the air :S n ...although it's a lot what I have to do for investigation I think I have a slight idea now but I'm totally worried about the other subject :S what else...oh yeah on friday it was so cool the reunion! we were all just chatting n it was nice,we exchanged numbers n we definetely have to plan that trip or rather field-excursion to six flags lol
I don't remember if I already wrote about my 94 in HLII :D yay me!! I'm not that bad n I may actually have a future lol oh yeah my body temperature is not that bad although everyone keeps telling me I'm the one who's wrong :P but hey! I might start to feel attacked since there have been many that have told me that :P
My guitar lessons are going pretty well :D although my pinky takes a lot of time to react :P
let's pick up the pieces n put me back together agaaaaaaaaaain (sing I'm singing at the moment)
I think I do need an ipod..seriously...I could have ALL of my songs there :P
I went with a friend to a dinner the other day n it was very nice.It's ironic how in the least place that you expect it you actually bump into people you know.But it was nice and the guy with the orange cap was cute lol
What else...I don't have that much time to post very often so I make my reviews of what has happened to me in pretty much...a post lol
Oh yeah I'm totally into one of the two books that I'm reading!! Virginia Woolf really wow feelin the way she writes!!
I watched Elizabethtown ...either I didn't get it or it's not that good..guess I kinda let myself be fooled by the fact that Kirsten starred in it n she usually makes good movies.Also watched playing a game or something like that with Drew IT TOTALLY SUX i CAN'T BELIEVE SHE ACTUALLY ACCEPTED TO ACT ON IT!!

Speaking of Virginia Woolf I totally felt in the Hours yesterday but it was really nice besides the coffee I had was totally delicious! soy milk rocks!! lol which proves I'm actually turning into a vegetarian ...who said meat was that necessary?

Oh yeah I also played in front of a bunch of ppl the other day n they just kept staring at me lol but it was nice!!
I can't remember what else I have to say...except I have to go to school tomorrow :( ok the truth is that I don't like getting up early :P oh n before I go I have to write about the ball I gave away n it felt sooo nice really, I can't express what I felt n the actual smile that I received, that's definetely worth everything :)
Now I think that's pretty much it...or at least what I remember...

Let it burn

Well Happy Halloween...I know it was yesterday...but still :P well I'm officially developing a serious phone-fright...yup,it scares me...kinda sad but true, n the worst is that I have no idea of how to deal with this but I hate it! for the good news...well we went to a grand opening yesterday n it felt kinda nice to be invited though most ppl think we went for the free drinks,which was not true lol it was nice. I've been playing a lot lately but it helps me a lot,besides I finally have my lesson tomorrow so we'll see how it goes...my god I'm shaking isnt that pathetic? but I can't control it!! besides I'm cold but as usual I'm to lazy to walk 2 steps to grab a jacket,anyways I can't figure this searching sites out...they are kinda weird..n I've come to notice that I haven't really understood what I'm supposed to be doing...I really gotta ask! anyways I have to stick to my paranoia n go to sleep.

"Love,hope and joy; fair pleasure's smiling train,
hate,fear, and grief; the family of pain,
these mix'd with art,and to due bounds confin'd,
make and maintain the balance of the mind"