Current Condition

Deja vu

Been here before, felt this way before and again I have to get over it!!!
gotta remember: FEAR IS ONLY IN OUR MINDS!!!!


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Shandying

When great or unexpected events fall out upon the stage of this sublunary world – the mind of man, which is an inquisitive kind of a substance, naturally takes a flight, behind the scenes, to see what is the cause and first spring on them.

LOVE is certainly, at least alphabetically speaking, one of the most
A gitating
B ewitching
C onfounded
D evilish affairs of life – the most
E xtravagant
F utilitous
G alligaskinish
H andy-dandyish
I racundulous (there is no K to it) and
L yrical of all human passions: at the same time, the most
M isgiving
N innyhammering
O bstipating
P ragmatical
S tridulous
R idiculous

The laaaassssst time

ладно,сегодня был хороший день, I finally handed in some final paper...tho I'm still not completely free and I'm going completely mad about it....but at least one thing less to worry about. On another subject, looks like I'm cursed, I couldn't see spiderman 3 and it looks like I'm not going to be able to watch it 'til it comes out on video....which sux cuz I wanted to see it in the big screen but at least I'm going to watch it right? instead we watched Je t'aime Paris, which was really good, I really liked it and enjoyed the evening :)
However, the big theme of the day is how ppl really like being treated badly...which leads me to....becoming a bitch....and apparently I am pretty good at it if I want to be one...I just give ppl what they want right?

I'm listening to Keane's The Last Time :) it's a really good song, I like it.

Más bien la vida

Más bien la vida que esos prismas sin espesor aun si los colores son más vivos
Más bien que esa hora siempre cubierta que esos terribles
coches de llamas frías

Que esas piedras bledos
Más bien este corazón con el freno puesto
Que esta charca con murmullos
Y que esta tela blanca que canta a la vez en el aire y
en la tierra
Que esta bendición nupcial que une mi frente a la de la
vanidad total
Más bien la vida

Más bien la vida con sus sábanas conjuratorias
Sus cicatrices de evasiones
Más bien la vida más bien este rosetón en mi tumba
La vida de la presencia nada más que de la presencia
Donde una voz dice ¿Estás ahí? donde otra voz responde
¿Estás ahí?
Apenas estoy por desgracia
Y sin embargo aun cuando hiciésemos el juego de lo que
hacemos morir
Más bien la vida

Más bien la vida más bien la vida Infancia venerable
La cinta que sale de un fakir
Se parece a la corredera del mundo
Bien puede el sol no ser más que un despojo
Por poco que el cuerpo de la mujer se le parezca
Piensas contemplando la trayectoria a todo lo largo
O sólo cerrando los ojos sobre la tormenta adorable que
se llama tu mano
Más bien la vida

Más bien la vida con sus salones de espera
Cuando sabe uno que no será nunca introducido
Más bien la vida con esos establecimientos termales
Donde el servicio se hace por medio de collares
Más bien la vida desfavorable y larga
Aun cuando los libros se cerrasen aquí sobre rayos menos
dulces
Y aun cuando allá hiciese un tiempo mejor que mejor
hiciese libre sí
Más bien la vida

Más bien la vida como fondo de desdén
A esa cabeza insuficientemente bella
Como el antídoto de esa perfección que ella reclama y
teme
La vida afeite de Dios
La vida como un pasaporte virgen
Una pequeña ciudad como Pont-à-Mousson
Y como todo está ya dicho

Más bien la vida

Review

Ok so I know I haven't written in a very long time but hey I just haven't felt like it, til now. A lot has happened in my life, friendships have become closer and stronger, I myself am changing a lot....again...growing up or at least that's what it feels like, controlling sides that I had NEVER controlled and learning from it.
I also found someone that resembled me a lot and I thought I had a chance but turns out I didn't and I gotta say that it kinda hit me hard, I even cried and everything, but I guess that when it's not meant to be it's just NOT gonna happen...too bad...cuz I thought this person was really cool and worth it but I was wrong.

These past couple of days have been very interesting. oh yeah btw I'm back in karate which is amazingly cool and makes me feel great, and again the universe is in equilibrium :) . I ran over someone NOT LITERALLY COURSE lol but we were playing stunts and a friend of mine ended up on the windshield lol and we took pictures course and it was cool, also...today we had an "interview" and we ended up freaking the lady out lol which was really cool...I guess we really are weird....when you freak ppl out...that's when you've accomplished something lol and well....what else....apparantely this summer I'm going to Argentina FINALLY ...still gotta wait and see what happens...

Valuable lesson I've learned: live for THE MOMENT!!! and enjoy it instead of thinking stupid things and wasting it, I guess life is really short to be wasting it in things that are just not worth it. So now new mission: apply this valuable lesson in everyday life!! gotta learn how to be cool tho not TOO cool like some ppl who broke my heart....

Am I really going to die without ever knowing what love is like????...and I guess we'll never know but so far looks like it!! (but was not worth tis because YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT US NOOOOO YOU DON'T CARE ABOOOOOOOUT US)