Getting the jitters...

Ok, so there are many types of sickness, there is an physical one, an emotional one, even a homey one, so why shouldn't there be a memorysick? (yup, got it out of homesick).It's incredible how the mind, when being about to face something unknown holds on to what it's familiarized with...I've been getting flooding memories of cool moments that have taken place during this past semester, but honestly, how can I miss them? is it missing? is it melancholy? or is it just paralyzing fear of what is about to come? -despite of how great that forthcoming moment may be-.

Also,how is it that emotions always end up taking over us? taking complete control over rational thought? now, I know that's not the way it's supposed to be, but honestly -just as I ended up discussing yesterday- the emotional impulse always comes before the rational one, how do you diminish its reach?
Yup, these are just some of the questions that have been pervading my mind today. Why are we so scared to detach ourselves not even completely if only for a little while without having to go through an anxiety phase? Honestly, just thinking about all of this -and more specifically experiencing it- makes my head ache which is why I should get going and get some sleep but I just had to do something to put my mind at ease -if there is actually such a thing-. Anyhow, on to another subject,I just have got to stop obsessing about this person!! and the worst part is that I'm wide aware that this is just not meant to be,I mean, we are just not meant for each other -if not in this lifetime, at least not at this moment- so I will just ask nicely...will you just STOP it dear mind??? I'm sure there are better things that you can focus on rather than thinking of something that I cannot have mainly because we are so out of tune!! ...ok now this may be one of those things that lead people to think I've lost it, however, the only way I can justify it is by saying that I lead a surrealistic lifestyle entirely based on surrealistic thought so,if there is a problem with it, just blame it on Breton and psychoanalisis...they made me do it!!!

He had it coming, he had it coming, he only had himself to blaaame,if you would have seen it,if you would have been there, I bet that you would have done the saaaame!!!

I really really hope this pre-adventure symtom gets easier with the passing of time, if not, I do believe I will lose my mental sanity for a fact!!