FUCK LOVE!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaghhhhh LOVE SUCKS!! HONESTLY!! why does it all have to be so fucking complicated? we want those who just don't give a fuck about us and the ones who would give their everything for us are the ones we just don't want! WHY WHY WHY??

I would say once again that I wanted to join an order or something and become a nun :P but apparently a friend has just told me that it didn't work LOL AND I SITLL CAN'T BELIEVE SHE ACTUALLY TRIED IT!!

But seriously....I hate these bloody feelings and emotions, they just mess everything up!!! at times like these I really wish I had no emotions....maybe that way I wouldn't screw things up and I wouldn't hurt myself because of them....maybe I should just forget all about J since evidently it's never going to happen and I don't know, give that fake hope that love will ever come along up....I don't know.....and the worst part is that I'm already confused enough as it is!! so this only makes everything worse.

Maybe this is the answer....